But she wears short skirts, I wear T-shirts, She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers

Hey guys(:
So, lately my life has been so up and down. I think I'm moving to Louisiana this weekend :|
Idk, me and my mom got into this HUGE fight and it ended up really badly so I honestly don't know what to do.. But then I'll miss one of my best friends coming down here on Oct. 15th who I haven't seen for 2 months. I have no freakin' idea what to do.

If you guys didn't know, I'm gonna tell you more about myself.
-Born in New Orleans Louisiana.
-Parents divorced January of 2004.
-Blonde.
-February 7th is the day.
-Purples the shiz.
-Freshy at MCHS.
-I make situations awkward.
-Has 28 tubes of mascara even though I don't wear makeup.
-Music is my whole entire life.
-I sing to live, I live to sing.
-Jesus is my savior.
-God is who I live for.
-Too team Jacob for my own good.
-Vegetarian.
-People say I dance to the beat of my own drum.
-I love being in love.
-My friends are the best in the world.
-Sarcasm is my second language.
-I have too many friends to count.
-I'm one of the few people who actually like high school.
-I hate drama starters.
-Being spontaneous is my thing.
-Bright green eyes.
-People say I'm attractive.
-I've been through more crap than most 40 year olds have and I'm only 14.
-I'm a stronger person than 95% of anyone I know.
-Mature for my age.
-I would die without my computer.
-I love Christian music with a burning passion.
-Guitar is my instrument.
-Fuze is muy delicious.
-I speak English, Polish, Romanian, and sarcasm.
-European mutt.
-I randomly blurt out thing like "Flibbitydoo" and loodleloodleloodle" on a regular basis.
-I hate people who try too hard to be someone they're not.
-Taylor Swift is amazing.
-The walls in my room is covered with friend signatures, memories, and over 100 pictures of me and my friends.
-I have multiple best friends.
-I live IN North Carolina.
-Wished I lived in Pennsylvania.
-Facebook is my addiction.
-Above the influence.


-I'm Torii(: That's all.

I cried writing this.

Hey you,
yeah you, if you're reading this and it feels.. right,
then it's probably directed towards you, if it doesn't then please stop reading this.
Since he first day I met you, I fell for you, totally and completely, and irrationally.
I barely knew anything about you.
We met in such an unusual way, but from the first day, I couldn't get you out of my head.
Finally, our friendship blossomed into something of a fairytale(:
And i was actually happy, happy, can you believe it!?
No one even knew I had feelings for you until I finally told your sister.
And I received the best news I could've possibly imagined, you liked me back.
I wanted to run, and dance and jump and twirl and run into your arms and never let go,
so finally, that night I told you.
You said you felt the same way,
and the next day was your birthday. :)
Somehow your parents found out, and this whole catastrophe happened, and well, that's history.
Now, I can't even look at you without wanting to cry about what could've been.
You were basically forbade to "like" me, and now you act like nothing was ever there because, not because you want to, but because you have to.
I wish you would just tell me what you feel, like you did when we were best friends.
I can't go a day without wishing you were mine, and wondering what the future holds.
I fell in love with you the day I met you,
now, even though everything's changed,
I'm still in love with you. Even though you probably don't know it...
So,
You'll probably never read this since you don't even have a facebook, but if you do,
I love you more than I've loved anyone in my life.
Thanks for being there to catch me when I fall,
Love Katey.

theres no one that compares to you.

When I'm with you,
eternity is a step away,
My love continues to grow
with each passing day.

This treasure of love,
I cherish within my soul,
How much I love you...
you'll never really know.

You bring a joy to my heart
I've never felt before,
With each touch of your hand
I love you more and more.

Whenever we say good-bye,
whenever we part,
Know I hold you dearly
deep inside my heart.

So these seven words
I pray you hold true,
"Forever And Always
I Will Love You"

This is what I really mean when I say I love you guys.

It feels like lately, my life has been a little empty, but at the same time it's fuller than it's ever been before.
I've grown a little apart from some of my dearest friends, and I'm so sorry, I've really been trying to work on that, I've been working alot of songs and I can't
WAIT til I get back to NC and actually have a suitable guitar to work with now <3
My life has been really up and down lately, but everything's working itself out and
I know that I just have to appreciate what I have, and who I am, and really just pray.
I know God has his hand on me, so I can't be afraid of anything. I really think it's time
to buckle down and go after my dream - im not getting any younger anyway. :)
I think I've finally decided to be a Christian singer. I know I'm really gonna have to work with it,
but someday I want to perform with either Natalie Grant or Francesca Battistelli.
When that happens, I'll know that I've finally made it.
I'm tired of just being normal, I know that I can achieve so much more,
and nows my time to really pursue that. I have everything I need, I have my amazing family,
my friends, and most of all God guiding my path. :)
I'm so blessed to have what I have, I have the finances to do it, I have the support,
and most of all, I have the drive and passion to do the two things that I really love
to do most- Loving & worshiping God, and singing and being able to combine the two,
i've found has been so motivating, and makes me want to accomplish this all the more
just to show everyone that I CAN do this.
The best thing about it is, even though I've screwed up so many times,
I'm always forgiven and sometimes I just need a little boost when I fall to get
right back up again.
The war for my soul has already started, but God's already won, because no matter what
happens, I'll always have him as my light, a way to guide me to what's really important in life.
I just want to say- Thanks god for finally showing me what I'm really supposed
to do with my life.
I'm still trying to put the pieces together, but I can feel God with me, and I know soon
they WILL all come together so I can see the big picture, which I've never been able to do before.
I want to thank the WHOLE Calvary Chapel Huntersville gang(: Without you guys,
I wouldn't even be walking with the Lord.
A special shout out to Mike Burner, you rock. Thank you so much for being not only my pastor,
but the person who actually brought me to Jesus, you helped save me man,
and that's something no one else can ever say except you. :)
Finding CCH was by far the best decision of my life, I've met countless friends,
I've been changed so radically as not only a christian, but a person, and just.. thank you. Endless love to all you guys. <3
I remember moving to Charlotte, and hating every part of it, I just wanted to cry everyday,
every little thing would remind me of NOLA or my friends, or the lack thereof, when I first
moved there.
I really went through a stage of mild depression in 3rd grade where I didn't even want to interact
with anyone. I'd put on a mask everyday and be this sweet happy kid at school, but
when I got home, despite how well school was going, despite how quickly i made friends, I just broke down and cried many times.
I'm obviously over that now, but that time in my life was difficult, just going
through a terrible parent divorce, being yanked out of school in the middle of the school year, losing every friend I had, having to start all over in a completely new environment was, as you can imagine such a scary thing for me.
Now that I look back, all I can say is thank you Lord for bringing us here.
My life turned out so much better. Even now, I can feel myself being changed,
so many weights finally being lifted off my shoulders just by a
few words and surrendering my life to God.
I'll never be able to express my gratitude to everyone who's remained true,
and stayed with me through every stage, every fake smile, every amazing moment.
I love every one of you.

God, thank you, you know exactly who I am, you know where I've been, everyone of my mistakes, and you still love me unconditionally. You never cease to amaze me. <3

Mom, where can I even start? You never stopped believing in me, even through the roughest times. You love me without peer, and I couldn't imagine a mom better than you. I wish I could make a giant card for you everyday telling you how much I appreciate you, and how much you mean to me. We've both come so far, both spiritually, and understanding each other, and I'm so proud to call you my mom. You've been with me through my highs and through my lows, and nothing compares to the love and support I feel from you and FOR you.
It really all boils down to, I love you Momma :) Thank you so much for everything.
Infinite love. <3

Daddy, there's an infinite list I can write here. You're everything I could ask for in a dad and more. You inspire me to achieve greatness, and I want to be everything you want me to be. Thank you infinitely for believing in me. I WILL make you proud, no matter what. You've always been the wind beneath my winds supporting everything I do, without you, I would've crash and burned a while ago. :)
I don't think you realize how much I look up to you, but I do. You make me want to be a better person.
I have no fear that you'll be my Daddy forever, and I'll always be your little girl. The love I feel for you encompasses anything,
I love you so much Daddy.

Aubrey, we've only known each other for a short time, but you make me want to achieve everything I've ever wanted to. You inspire me everyday to be a better person. I see how beautiful of a soul you have, and I look up to you so much. You'll forever be a big sister to me that I adore unconditionally. :)
When you walk into a room I can feel God shining through you, you've gone so far, and known what you've wanted to do since you were young, I can only hope what I'm doing will make as big of a difference as you make everyday in so many people's lives, including mine.
I love you and miss you so much!!!

Auntie Lindy, thank you SO much for being someone I can come to for anything any day, and you always having amazing advice. I look to you as a spiritual guidance and I see even from your simple posts everyday, that God radiates through you. You really really inspire me to be intune with the Lord, and continue in my journey down his path he's created for me.
I love you!

Michael Tromatoree, just because I wasted so much of your time writing this dang thing, I seriously figured you NEEDED to be talked about in here. :)
You've become like an amazingly cool, yet annoying brother to me. ;) Thanks for always making me smile, even on my worst of days. You rock,
Foreverrr, Victoriaa(:

Jessie!!!! I love you so much girl! We've become so close so fast, and you're more than a sister to me. :)
Thank you for always being there for me when I needed support and just someone to talk to. Thank you for staying up with me on late nights, :)
You're amazingg,
Love, Victoria!

Pablo, when you read my note and said the things to me that you did,
you completely blew me away.
Everything about you I love and I don't even know how I could live without you.
No matter what you do,or what happens I'll always love you so much! I've loved every
moment of talking to you, and each one I really really cherish.
You're beyond amazing. You've always been there for me since day one, making me
happier with every single word you say. we were best friends from the start, and I really really REALLY hope we always will be. Your faith in God, I love, and that's something no one
can ever take away from you. You're beyond awesomeness and just.. EVERYTHING babe(:
Love you,
Victoria(:



But seriously, EVERYONE that has ever made a difference in my life needs to be thanked here. I love you all so much.

Lord, I'm holding your hand every step of this, and even though I may trip up sometimes, I can't wait til the day I can stand tall and worship you forever in your Kingdom. <3

Really special thanks to the Burners and the Tassos :)
Both families have been so amazing an welcoming and I love you guys SO much.
You've both become like family to me over the time of a few months,
and given me so many new amazing friends that I couldn't imagine my life without.

My life certainly hasn't been the easiest of them all, but I know I've been so blessed through everything.
I don't want to go one more day being who I used to be, I'm ready for the new me. I have to keep making changes until I find not only who I want to be, but who God wants me to be.

You all rock my socks! :)
xoxo forever,
-Katey/ Victoria

♥

Christian Song I wrote(:

Walkin' down an old brick road, never really knew where my
life was gonna go.
Letting go was never really hard, sometimes I just felt I fell too far.
With you by my side
I'm conquering my fears,
taking you along for the ride,
Yeah you've always known my life story.
I don't have to hide in shame no more, your face is the only thing I'm looking for.

Just a normal girl, changed my life with a few simple words.
Live for the Lord and don't be shy, I'm living in my savior's shadow tonight.
Changed, amazed, ready to get away.
Never looking back, my life's so much better now that I'm saved.
Yeah, now I'm saved,
there's one more for Jesus.

You held my hand through every storm,
hushed me to sleep when I was born,
got me through my first heartbreak, you watched me make every mistake.
Lord I want you to know, I'm letting go of everything,
lifting my heart, free to sing,
here's my new start, reborn, renewed, Lord I just want to say thank you, thank you, because

Just a normal girl, changed my life with a few simple words.
Live for the Lord and don't be shy, I'm living in my savior's shadow tonight.
Changed, amazed, ready to get away.
Never looking back, my life's so much better now that I'm saved.
Yeah, now I'm saved,
there's one more for Jesus.
Oh, Oh, lalalalala

If you're hurting, surrender that pain,
and give it to him, he'll wash it away.
I'll serve my lord with all I have, I'll make him proud and that's fact.
When he calls my name, when we come face to face,
I'll bow before his glory and say
oh, oh

I was just a normal girl, changed my life with a few simple words.
I lived for the Lord and I'm not shy,
I'll proclaim my love to the skies.
Changed, amazed, ready to get away.
Never looking back, my life's so much better now that I'm saved.
Yeah, now I'm saved,
I'm one more for Jesus.

<3
there's one more for Jesus.

ill stop the world and melt with you.

well then, today was.. interesting.

i walked to CVS cuz i was bored and im not even gonna lie, it's REALLY awkward walking on a main road in the middle of the day because like EVERY person stares at you.

like..

NO.

NOT LIKE THAT. AT ALL.

THATS JUST.. DISTURBING.

more like..

yeah, more like that.

THEN I was in the car right? We were at a stoplight and I pull up next to a car with a black dude in the back and he frickin stares at me THE WHOLE TIME.

needless to say- i was very uncomfortable.

im eating pretzels, they're uber good.

AND GIANT.

wow, those. look. good.

...LIKE YOUR MOM!!!

SORRY.

I had an obnoxious white boy moment.

alright, well I think I'm gonna stop typing now because if I really typed what was on my mind, you'd all be scared.

Alriighty, BYE.

sometimes i wish i could touch the moon.

everyday I wish maybe I could just get a taste of what lifes really like.

i want to travel the world, get to know people for who they really are.

not for what they pretend to be.

i know for a fact, that most people, even my closest friends,

only see who i want them to see.

and what they want me to be, starts to just be a mask that

i can hide behind when i need to.

i wish people didn't have to change who they were to fit in, or be popular.

sometimes i have moments where it feels like maybe, just maybe, i understand the world a little better.

now i know, you can never really understand the world for what it is,

or who a specific person is,

because us, as humans, are so irrational and spontaneousness

even when we claim not to be.

my biggest fear would be to die unknown. that's why i push myself beyond my limits, to be perfect, when i know it's not possible.

maybe that's why i cry when i don't succeed. i feel like being better

than other people will fill this void i have in my life, where i dont meet

peoples expectations.

i'm so afraid to disappoint people. so i sacrifice my own happiness for others.

i have days that i cant imagine my life any other way

because it's all ive ever known.

i feel like if i show people who i really am, they wont accept me,

because of the

image ive created for myself. and thats what theyre used to.

if i make a mistake, i feel like

everyone sees it.

i hate being looked up to because when you screw up, people either get hurt,

or you dont turn out as who they think you are. i cant stand society and the

stereotypes that have been created. why cant we all just be friends,

we're all people.

maybe that's a lesson i need to learn for myself. to stop judging people

before i meet them.

just because they may not be 'cool enough' to hang out with my friends,

and my friends act superior for no reason,

i dont have to conform and be like them.

sometimes i wish i could touch the moon.

to see what it'd be like to go past the limits of what

you thought were possible. to go past expectations.

wherever you are in the world, remember you're not alone.

never say never, because i bet if you try, you can do anything.

be anything.

even if people tell you that you cant.

show them they're wrong.

always stay true to yourself.

and never lose who you really are.

you're beautiful.

(:

Hey(: This is a song I wrote in Spanish class today.

It's not finished yet, but I'll post the whole thing when it is.

Thanks guys, you mean the world to me.

I remember our first day

like it was yesterday.

I still remember your smile,

everyone said before we met

they hadn't seen it in a while.

I needed you like the air we breathe,

two hearts as one--

(haven't finished that verse yet.)

I love the way your eyes shine in the moonlight,

how you got excited

when you learned to braid my hair right.

I love the way you

hold me when I'm sad,

I love the way you're everything I never had.

I say "You're perfect"

but you'd never agree.

Cuz the only thing you know for sure is

I was made for you,

and you were made for me.

Oh oh whoa.

AND that's all I have so far..

Stand

I wrote this song after he told me he was in love with me last sunday.(:

Just thinking ahead into our future.

Thinkin' back never thought we would make it this far,

takin' on the world together,

so I've put down my guard.

Waitin' up,

seeing what the future will bring.

Never knew what love was

til I got your ring.

Picture perfect now everythings

falling into place.

Never believe in true love,

til I saw your face.

Couldn't stand back and

watch you slip out of my hands,

the road here was rocky,

but now here we stand.

Everyone told us we ere crazy,

for falling in love so fast,

now let's see what they'd say.

If only they could see us,

just as much in love as the 1st day.

Can't imagine my life without you,

you are the reason I breathe,

I'm hanging onto

the joy you bring me

-oh-

I'm so caught up in you.

Picture perfect now everythings

falling into place.

Never believe in true love,

til I saw your face.

Couldn't stand back and

watch you slip out of my hands,

the road here was rocky,

but now here we stand.

-Wha-oh oh oh oh-

I've always been a sucker for guitar players,

when I looked in your eyes,

my search stopped there.

I knew you were the one,

the only one for me,

I just crossed my finger and hoped you could see.

That I'd love you

more than any other,

and that you couldn't deny we were made for eachother.

Picture perfect now everythings

falling into place.

Never believe in true love,

til I saw your face.

Couldn't stand back and

watch you slip out of my hands,

the road here was rocky,

but now here we stand.

Stand, Stand.

Skip ahead a few years,

I still remember

how you were fearless that day

in October.

You still take my breath away

with every word you say.

You were my first love, and certainly my last.

-Yea-ah.-

Now here-we-stand.

Hey Isaiah

Holaa again(:

So, I wrote this song for this guy I'm in love with.

I'm getting majorly mixed feelings right now, so this song really describes how I feel.

Hope you enjoy!

Hey Isaiah, I bet you'll never know

how it kills me

to see you feelin' so low.

I knew from the second I saw you,

I'd be makin' a fool of myself

to never lose you.

Guess they're right when they say

you don't know what you got til it's gone.

Crystal clear nights nothing left to lose,

all I remember is being so in love with you.

Had everything I ever wanted,

but the one thing I need is gone and

all I want is you.

Well, silence is deadly but so are you.

All this time we've both

still remained true,

and it makes me wonder

if you're still in love with me too.

Hey Isaiah, you catch me staring all the time,

cuz I still think of you as mine.

My friends tell me it's not healthy,

that's true I know,

but there must be a reason

I can't let you go.

Crystal clear nights nothing left to lose,

all I remember is being so in love with you.

Had everything I ever wanted,

but the one thing I need is gone and

all I want is you.

Well, silence is deadly but so are you.

All this time we've both

still remained true,

and it makes me wonder

if you're still in love with me too.

The silent cries,

the sleepless nights,

leave me calling your name.

The prayers never spoken

cuz my hearts too broken

to even rationalize.

-Oh whoa whoa-

Crystal clear nights nothing left to lose,

all I remember is being so in love with you.

Had everything I ever wanted,

but the one thing I need is gone and

all I want is you.

Well, silence is deadly but so are you.

All this time we've both

still remained true,

and it makes me wonder

if you're still in love with me too.

Hey Isaiah, well here's a shock to hear,

by the time you're probably reading this I've long since disappeared.

Hey Isaiah.

I still wish you were in love with me.

Hey guys, so I wrote this song last week and I started sobbing while I was writing the chorus.

Hope you enjoy it, because it's a piece of my heart.

I wish he could see

the way he looks at me.

Brings tears to my eyes

cuz we could never be.

Wondering why still all this time

I still try to make you look at me

like you did before.

I had dreams, I had visions of us,

but now it's like it's being thrown under the bus.

With you 'us' comes last,

but for me,

I just want to take it back.

Cuz I miss laughing and fighting and kissing in the rain.

It's 3AM and I'm crying your name.

I'd give anything to stop feeling these things,

but somepart of me still wants

that knee and that ring.

You bring out the best of me,

you my first love,

so why, why can't you see,

I still wish you were in love with me.

I wish I could go back to the day you changed your mind,

say somethin', anything,

to stop you from leavin' us behind.

It wasn't over til I saw you with her,

I never realized how much it would hurt.

Cuz I miss laughing and fighting and kissing in the rain.

It's 3AM and I'm crying your name.

I'd give anything to stop feeling these things,

but somepart of me still wants

that knee and that ring.

You bring out the best of me,

you my first love,

so why, why can't you see,

I still wish you were in love with me.

To this day I ask myself why,

what did i say? Why do I still cry?

Then I realized the honest truth,

I can't keep this anymore from you,

I'm still in love with you.

I still miss those green eyes,

how you can't sing even though you try .

I miss the touch of your skin,

but the worst thing of all

wasn't that you let me fall,

it's that in the end you weren't there to catch me.

-Yeah-

and I miss laughing and fighting and kissing in the rain.

It's 3AM and I'm crying your name.

I'd give anything to stop feeling these things,

but somepart of me still wants

that knee and that ring.

You bring out the best of me,

you my first love,

so why, why can't you see,

I still wish you were in love with me.

I love you.

(:

well. i kinda maybe love you. thats all.

my life is just about.. REALLY great right now.

BECAUSE I heard that you maybesortakinda love me again.

and considering ive loved you since the moment i met you...

thatmakesmesohappy.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. and i cant wait til april 17th.

so we can finally be together.

forever.

and i promise to love you til the day that i die.

youre my life.

& this weekend, was the day that my life felt complete.

youve been there for me since day one, and you make me feel like everythings gonna be okay.

and you hold me when i cry.

and you tell me my life is amazing, when i feel like it sucks,

and only you have that power to assure me, and make me feel good when all i want to do is cry.

not to mention i stained your favorite shirt with my tears that one night...

and you just smiled and said it's okay.

i love you.

so much.

i just wanted to say.. youre my life.

and thank you for being you.

rainbows and clouds and such.

Soo... I've been thinking.

(don't get too scared)

that I really do love him. like i do. but then there's the guy thats just likeWHOA!

and he just lights up my life with his smile.

he walks into a a room and i know everythings gonna be okay as long as he's there.

cuz he's just that

amazing.

and he makes my head all confused.. but a happy way

like.. how

booty shorts

&

kisses

make me happy

& it's crazy.

BECAUSE

the first time I laid eyes on you...

i know you were the one i had to have because youre just that

amazing.

& it hurts me to see you not smiling.

and it kills me when you're not around.

but when you are, its like im floating on a

cloud.

and honestly, i never thought i'd hear the words

ILOVEYOU

come out of your mouth.

but then i did.

and it was like the whole world was at peace.

for once.

& i fell in love

.

.

.

.

with you.

& then you hugged me and time stopped.

& we never wanted to let go.

ILOVEYOU

love,

katoria(;

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bicycles.

ohkay, lemme start off by saying...

boys suck.!

anyway, so there are two guys that im rediculously in love with.
problem is-
they're...

brothers!!!

exactly.
huge dilemma.

i mean one of them im IN LOVE WITH.
for real.

but then the parents got into it and just...
oh dear.

so. yeah.

but then the other...
whoa.

we went to the lake yesterday and he took his shirt off and i died.
then we got into a pushy fight and i "threw" him in the water and it was so cute.
lemme say,
he lookshotwhen he's all wet.



they're both the sweetest guys ever.
and theyre both my church pastors sons.

but like i said.

im in LOVE with the first one.
like rediculously.



problem is,
his parents would kill him if he ever dated anyone.

well both of them actually.

UGH.
im about to die of confusion.

HELP!?

okay,
well im not even done.

both of them like me back.,

problem?

HOWTHEF---AMISUPPOSEDTOCHOOSE!?

they'reboth soawesome, andsweet, andHOT, and they both make mehappy.

even though the first one is the one i know i'dmarryif he asked me right now.

i love you.
even though you probably don't know it anymore.


i want to be with you forever,even though you probably don't know it anymore.


i want you to hold me, and never let goeven though you probably don't know it anymore.


i want to be your everythingeven though you probably don't know it anymore.


i want you to look me in the eyes and tell me how you really feel,because i don't even know anymore.


sigh.
okay, im done venting.


story of my life right there.

hi .!(:

Heey! I'm Torii(:

I'll update daily.