It feels like lately, my life has been a little empty, but at the same time it's fuller than it's ever been before.
I've grown a little apart from some of my dearest friends, and I'm so sorry, I've really been trying to work on that, I've been working alot of songs and I can't
WAIT til I get back to NC and actually have a suitable guitar to work with now <3
My life has been really up and down lately, but everything's working itself out and
I know that I just have to appreciate what I have, and who I am, and really just pray.
I know God has his hand on me, so I can't be afraid of anything. I really think it's time
to buckle down and go after my dream - im not getting any younger anyway. :)
I think I've finally decided to be a Christian singer. I know I'm really gonna have to work with it,
but someday I want to perform with either Natalie Grant or Francesca Battistelli.
When that happens, I'll know that I've finally made it.
I'm tired of just being normal, I know that I can achieve so much more,
and nows my time to really pursue that. I have everything I need, I have my amazing family,
my friends, and most of all God guiding my path. :)
I'm so blessed to have what I have, I have the finances to do it, I have the support,
and most of all, I have the drive and passion to do the two things that I really love
to do most- Loving & worshiping God, and singing and being able to combine the two,
i've found has been so motivating, and makes me want to accomplish this all the more
just to show everyone that I CAN do this.
The best thing about it is, even though I've screwed up so many times,
I'm always forgiven and sometimes I just need a little boost when I fall to get
right back up again.
The war for my soul has already started, but God's already won, because no matter what
happens, I'll always have him as my light, a way to guide me to what's really important in life.
I just want to say- Thanks god for finally showing me what I'm really supposed
to do with my life.
I'm still trying to put the pieces together, but I can feel God with me, and I know soon
they WILL all come together so I can see the big picture, which I've never been able to do before.
I want to thank the WHOLE Calvary Chapel Huntersville gang(: Without you guys,
I wouldn't even be walking with the Lord.
A special shout out to Mike Burner, you rock. Thank you so much for being not only my pastor,
but the person who actually brought me to Jesus, you helped save me man,
and that's something no one else can ever say except you. :)
Finding CCH was by far the best decision of my life, I've met countless friends,
I've been changed so radically as not only a christian, but a person, and just.. thank you. Endless love to all you guys. <3
I remember moving to Charlotte, and hating every part of it, I just wanted to cry everyday,
every little thing would remind me of NOLA or my friends, or the lack thereof, when I first
moved there.
I really went through a stage of mild depression in 3rd grade where I didn't even want to interact
with anyone. I'd put on a mask everyday and be this sweet happy kid at school, but
when I got home, despite how well school was going, despite how quickly i made friends, I just broke down and cried many times.
I'm obviously over that now, but that time in my life was difficult, just going
through a terrible parent divorce, being yanked out of school in the middle of the school year, losing every friend I had, having to start all over in a completely new environment was, as you can imagine such a scary thing for me.
Now that I look back, all I can say is thank you Lord for bringing us here.
My life turned out so much better. Even now, I can feel myself being changed,
so many weights finally being lifted off my shoulders just by a
few words and surrendering my life to God.
I'll never be able to express my gratitude to everyone who's remained true,
and stayed with me through every stage, every fake smile, every amazing moment.
I love every one of you.
God, thank you, you know exactly who I am, you know where I've been, everyone of my mistakes, and you still love me unconditionally. You never cease to amaze me. <3
Mom, where can I even start? You never stopped believing in me, even through the roughest times. You love me without peer, and I couldn't imagine a mom better than you. I wish I could make a giant card for you everyday telling you how much I appreciate you, and how much you mean to me. We've both come so far, both spiritually, and understanding each other, and I'm so proud to call you my mom. You've been with me through my highs and through my lows, and nothing compares to the love and support I feel from you and FOR you.
It really all boils down to, I love you Momma :) Thank you so much for everything.
Infinite love. <3
Daddy, there's an infinite list I can write here. You're everything I could ask for in a dad and more. You inspire me to achieve greatness, and I want to be everything you want me to be. Thank you infinitely for believing in me. I WILL make you proud, no matter what. You've always been the wind beneath my winds supporting everything I do, without you, I would've crash and burned a while ago. :)
I don't think you realize how much I look up to you, but I do. You make me want to be a better person.
I have no fear that you'll be my Daddy forever, and I'll always be your little girl. The love I feel for you encompasses anything,
I love you so much Daddy.
Aubrey, we've only known each other for a short time, but you make me want to achieve everything I've ever wanted to. You inspire me everyday to be a better person. I see how beautiful of a soul you have, and I look up to you so much. You'll forever be a big sister to me that I adore unconditionally. :)
When you walk into a room I can feel God shining through you, you've gone so far, and known what you've wanted to do since you were young, I can only hope what I'm doing will make as big of a difference as you make everyday in so many people's lives, including mine.
I love you and miss you so much!!!
Auntie Lindy, thank you SO much for being someone I can come to for anything any day, and you always having amazing advice. I look to you as a spiritual guidance and I see even from your simple posts everyday, that God radiates through you. You really really inspire me to be intune with the Lord, and continue in my journey down his path he's created for me.
I love you!
Michael Tromatoree, just because I wasted so much of your time writing this dang thing, I seriously figured you NEEDED to be talked about in here. :)
You've become like an amazingly cool, yet annoying brother to me. ;) Thanks for always making me smile, even on my worst of days. You rock,
Foreverrr, Victoriaa(:
Jessie!!!! I love you so much girl! We've become so close so fast, and you're more than a sister to me. :)
Thank you for always being there for me when I needed support and just someone to talk to. Thank you for staying up with me on late nights, :)
You're amazingg,
Love, Victoria!
Pablo, when you read my note and said the things to me that you did,
you completely blew me away.
Everything about you I love and I don't even know how I could live without you.
No matter what you do,or what happens I'll always love you so much! I've loved every
moment of talking to you, and each one I really really cherish.
You're beyond amazing. You've always been there for me since day one, making me
happier with every single word you say. we were best friends from the start, and I really really REALLY hope we always will be. Your faith in God, I love, and that's something no one
can ever take away from you. You're beyond awesomeness and just.. EVERYTHING babe(:
Love you,
Victoria(:
But seriously, EVERYONE that has ever made a difference in my life needs to be thanked here. I love you all so much.
Lord, I'm holding your hand every step of this, and even though I may trip up sometimes, I can't wait til the day I can stand tall and worship you forever in your Kingdom. <3
Really special thanks to the Burners and the Tassos :)
Both families have been so amazing an welcoming and I love you guys SO much.
You've both become like family to me over the time of a few months,
and given me so many new amazing friends that I couldn't imagine my life without.
My life certainly hasn't been the easiest of them all, but I know I've been so blessed through everything.
I don't want to go one more day being who I used to be, I'm ready for the new me. I have to keep making changes until I find not only who I want to be, but who God wants me to be.
You all rock my socks! :)
xoxo forever,
-Katey/ Victoria
